A letter to my baby Girl on the first day I learned of Her

Sweet Baby Girl, 

Tonight is the first night I learned of you. I was talking to your Aunt Jessie when the phone rang. I practically hung up on her when I saw our agency on the other line. My heart stood still in my chest. 
Jerry called and said, “If you think this is Christmas call, you are wrong. If your think this is New Years call you are wrong. But if you  think that this is the day you were matched with a birth family, you are right.”  My world started spinning and my heart got caught in my throat. I just stood there smiling, speechless. Then, that very second I heard your daddy’s car in the driveway so I ran to the door, put Jerry on speaker phone and made him repeat the whole thing over again. The smile on your daddy’s face was one I’ve never before. I can’t even describe it but you’ll see it soon. I have a feeling that’s his smile just for you.Jerry told us of your first mommy and daddy and how much they love you. I’m excited to meet them. They told us that you were due March 1st. Next they said something that made me lose my breath, something that changed my life forever, something that woke my heart up. They said that you were girl! I screamed for joy and Jerry and Debbie joked saying it’s good to know that Amber is still there on the line. I was so quiet on the phone because I was trying to soak it all up, I wanted to remember everything. Luckily I have your daddy to help with that, he pulled out his phone and started taking notes. 

The moment where it all sank in and became real was when Jerry began to tell us that your mommy and daddy had a name in mind for you. When they said the name Violet, I saw your face for the first time. I saw my baby girl and my heart melted. That was the split second you became my daughter and it was also the moment you gave me what my heart needed most. You made me a momma. 

As I’m sitting here writing this I just want you to know that I’ll do whatever I can to make you feel complete, chosen, and cherished because thats what I’ve prayed for my whole life and tonight you were my answer.  It is my hope that your first mommy and daddy will always have a place in your life because I want you to feel double the love. 

I love you already baby girl, to the moon and back

Love, Mommy

9 thoughts on “A letter to my baby Girl on the first day I learned of Her

  1. Amber I am so happy for you! Your strength through everything was so inspiring to me personally! You’re going to be an amazing momma & I cannot wait for all of your baby spam! So happy for your family! 💕


    1. Thanks so much friend. Gosh I’m so glad I’m inspiring that pretty much makes my whole week. I’m so glad you have faith in me, might need to borrow it on one of those long nights with out sleep that I’ve heard so much about. LOL. Can’t wait to collaborate with you. I’ll be in touch soon. 💕

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      1. lol you’ll be great even with all the sleepless nights! So excited to collab! Can’t wait to hear from you! 💕


  2. This is such a lovely piece. Whilst reading this I couldn’t help but tear up (could be all my pregnancy hormones). After just learning I’m having a girl and being adopted myself, not to mention I too struggled with infertility, it brought up some really beautiful emotions. Thanks for sharing. Look forward to following your journey. Congratulations!


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